Time for some blogging to pass the time...
been a while now that i have been trying to occupy myself over the summer. I am missing uni and feel a little as if i have lost my purpose in life.
I dont like to complain, and I know I'm very fortunate to have such a loong summer break with nothing too pressing to do..... But when you've spent the last few years recovering from an illness with no occupation at all, and finally started to get back into the swing of life, its not so exciting to have time off. I've already had a long time off and would be happier keeping the momentum going.
Anyone who has suddenly found themselves unemployed will understand that at first it is kind if cool to be able to lay about all day and do what you please....but after a week or two things start to drag a bit and you find yourself wondering how to fill your time, and how best to avoid Jeremy Kyle.
Luckily the weather has been pretty glorious, and compared to the years i spent laying about in my jimjams, feeding my cats and being a recluse, it is nice to now be doing exciting things, getting outside, meeting people, and finding more interesting ways to make the most if life, (even if I am secretly nerdily waiting until i can return to my studies.)
So far into the holidays i have done some amazing things, such as:
adventures on the train, often missing my stop and ending up in new places
Reunited with old friends and had a good old catchup
Bought a new toothbrush
Gone for lots of aimless walks
Drunk a lot of coffee
Drunk a fair bit of wine
Written a few chapters of my next bestselling novel
Ripped up the Bible and made a picture out if it
Lots of doodling
Donated to charity
Babysat flo for hollie
Learnt some circus tricks
Stroked a dog
Walked a dog
Cut shapes out of leather and stuck them together into animals
Chatted to Neddy
Been to a local gig
Socialised and actually enjoyed it
Been to a bbq
Swam in the seaTuned and strummed my guitar
Learnt a new song on my keyboard
Some not so fun things:
Cleaned and hoovered and tidied up
Organised my stash of obsessive paper collecting into colour coordinated order
Opened my post that had been building up for a while
Had the compulsion to rearrange my furniture, a few times
Gotten stuck between the sofa, the bed and the wall
Dropped the sofa on my toe
Threw away some old socks
Faced my fear of picking up the phone, and even made some important calls
Had some training in 'being more assertive'
Twiddled my thumbs
Stared at the sky
Cheeped to the birds
Admired a bumble bee
Stared at a wall
Caught up on sleep
Stared at another wall
Hidden under my duvet
Been forced to go on a 'skills for work' training day, with the threat of loosing my income if i didnt. ... Though it actually turned out to be ok (there was free flapjack)
Applied for few jobs and freaked out upon recieving a reply
Had a little panic
Hidden in bed a bit more
And then i met a real boy.... Well, a fine young man. And i talked to him?
And we shared a few things and i told him about the catlady and the craziness, and he said, is ok. I like you.
And we have been hanging out, and I'm so much happier when I'm with him.
And something very strange has happened to me, because in all my years i have never particularly liked boys. But this one is really lovely.
and he said, i fancy you.
And i said, i fancy you too.
And since ive met him, i have done cen note fub things. and its so much more fun not doin them on my own...have paddled in the river, ooohed and ahhhed at some
Fireworks,
spent some pennies in the arcade, walked along the beach of an evening instead of tucking up in bed on my own, eaten some yummy food, which he cooked for me, gone to the cinema, had a little picnic, danced to my ipod.... . And i havnt felt lonely at all.I have been quite happy to just be myself, and smiled a lot.
A lot of ridiculous smiling and giggly girliness, which has taken me by surprise a little bit. I seem to be acting a bit odd.
he makes me laugh, and he holds my hand so im not so nervous in public :)
Now the summer holidays are fun and exciting :)
Its sooooooooooooo gooood to be able to do all these things that i never thought i would.
And he likes my art.
And my writing,
And he writes toooo,
And i could talk a lot about him but im not sure if i should
i have wanted to just be left alone for such a long time, and now its lovely to know that i actually am a human being, which are supposed to be social creatures....and i dont want to be in my own anymore.
I am enjoying life and it is so much better to be out the other side of lonely catladydom and into the realm of living.
And i have to go now because i just got a call, which i answered, excitedly, from a certain young man, who will be joining me, in 5 mins or so , which means i know longer meed to pass the time with blogging... Because im going to hang out with him, in my pjs.
He isnt a cat and he doesnt steal my paintbrushes :)
Eeeeeeeeeeeek.